Anxieties

Well, it is down to five days before I go.  I actually signed up for this trip in September of 2010.  I had thought about it many years before then.  Have you ever had something that you dreamed about that was so fun to think about and fantasize how great things would be, but when it actually came time to do it, you were worried it might not be what you thought it would be.  I think that is where I am.  I have been thinking, “What have I gotten myself into?”  “How can I take two months and leave my sweetheart?” “How can I leave my work and clients for two months?” “What if I can’t do this?” I am sure that all I need is to get this trip underway and I will settle down.

Last week has been busy in making preparations.  I sent my bike to Maine Fed Ex.  I used the same method when I went to Iowa in 2009 to ride RAGBRAI.  You always hope the bike gets there without being bent or smashed or something.  I also finished packing everything yesterday for the trip.  They do recommend that you keep things at a minimum in what you bring.  I look at the things I packed and wonder how I am going to get by for two months.  I have three changes of riding cloths, two changes of other cloths, a fleece jacket and a riding jacket and then just stuff for the bike (an extra tire and spokes, oil, chain links etc.) and camping gear.  It all weighs about 45 lbs. and that is within the guidelines that are recommended.  I have carried it all as I trained for this trip and even though it is very different riding a fully loaded bike, I seemed to handle it ok. 

Overall, I think I am ready physically and I will get through emotionally as well.  When I next write, I will at least be on my way!  I have looked at the weather this next week in Bar Harbor and it is supposed to be raining.  Quit being so anxious, right??